What I Meant to Say

She smells of cigarettes
and Victoria's Secret perfume.
A pretty girl--
Just misunderstood.
A little crazy at times
But she always means good.
She just never knows
what she wants.

She fears all relationships
Friendships too.
She just wants you to be there
Doesn't want you,
But doesn't want her
To have you.

She's scared to lose you--
But doesn't want her feelings to get in the way.
She loves what she has
But right now she fears it might be
Taken away.

She doesn't understand
why you can't be content
with what you have.
You are always out
looking
for something more.


So she wants you
To know
That she's there
No matter what--
and to please not leave
no matter who comes
around.

You keep her sane
and you understand
her.
Just please don't leave yet--
She still needs you here.
Your friendship
She endears.