Perfection

I want to find love.
The kind that sweeps you off your feet-
the kind that lasts forever
I want to find the guy
that feels complete
with only me around.
I don’t want to be the last resort
or the convenient choice.
I want to be the only choice.
The only option
The perfect fit.

I want to find love.
The kind that takes your breath away.
Each day.
The kind you only see in movies.
I want to find the guy
that lets nothing stand in the way
nothing will be greater than our love.
I don’t want to settle.
I will search forever.
I want to be the perfect choice.
The only possibility.
The ultimate fit.

I will find love.
I will find that person.
That can’t start his day without a kiss
and a simple good morning.
That can’t sleep without hearing my voice
one last time before closing his eyes.
Our bodies will fit together
like two puzzle pieces.
And it will be the right choice.
The only choice.
The perfect love.

I Need.

I am on my knees
begging for you to see—
to see what I see.
something so beautiful
something so real.
It is something so scary
and something we may not be ready for.
But it is something that takes guts.
Its a jump
that could end in a fall
Its a leap
that requires faith
Its a hurdle
that only love can overcome.
And its a chance
I am willing to take.

I am on my knees
begging for you to talk—
to say what I want to hear
or something I may not.
To express yourself
deep down from the heart
To let me in
To ask me questions.
But it is something that requires trust.
I need honesty
I need openness
I don’t need the answers
but I need the trust.

Once

You and I
well we are nothing
You can’t be what I want
and I will never be what you want
So why is it so hard
to admit to one another
that you and I
well we are nothing.
Once before
well we were something
and once before
I had faith
But as time goes on
I lose faith
and as time goes on
I grow cold.
I have the answers
but you aren’t ready
I know the truths
but you can’t do it.
but once before
well we were something.

This Boy

I am in love with a boy
that is too scared to love me back.
I am in love with a boy
that is too blind to see before his eyes.
I am in love with a boy
that I have a history with.
I am in love with a boy
that I want to see the future with.
I am in love with a boy
that stands by my side.
I am in love with a boy
that makes me cry.
I am in love with a boy
that always makes me smile.
I will keep my faith
because this boy I love
wants to love me too.
This boy I love wants to see it through.
This boy I love knows it is true.
This boy I love will hopefully see.
Dear boy I love,
It is you and me.

This Girl

Stupid girl
that thinks it will change
Stupid girl
that believes in happy endings
Stupid girl
that thinks it could be real.

Smart girl
learns to let go
Smart girl
knows it is time to be free
Smart girl
will always be ok.

Hurt girl
cries alone at night
Hurt girl
won’t put up with lies
Hurt girl
will never know why.

Happy girl
will always have a reason to smile
Happy girl
knows things will get better
Happy girl
knows she will be ok.

Maybe

Maybe this is it--
Maybe its unrealistic
A fantasy
that we have enjoyed.

Maybe the timing--
will never be right.
Maybe it is a jump
we will never be ready to take.

Maybe we should part ways
Maybe we should stay
But the love--
Well it will never go away.

Maybe we are just searching--
for the obvious
Maybe we know the answers
Maybe we need to do what's right.

Maybe we must find--
what we truly want.
But maybe you already know.
Maybe you need to express this.

Maybe I will never be more,
maybe I will never be enough.
Maybe you will always be looking;
looking for something more than me.

It is the maybe that scares me
the maybe that makes me crazy
the maybe that makes me unsure.
But maybe.

Yes, You!

Hey mister-
yeah you
The one that looks at me-
with those gorgeous eyes.
Yes, you!
The one that smiles like that.

Hey you-
yes you
the one that knows how to touch my hand
ever so slightly and give me warmth
Yes, you!
The one with the perfect touch.

Hey friend-
yes you
the one that listens to me talk-
even when I’m angry.
Yes, you!
Calming me down with just a few words.

Hi love-
you know its you.
the one that can break my heart
and make me melt-all in a single day.
Yes-its you.
And you know it is too.

I may be replaceable in the future
and you may find someone else.
But hey you-
Its me.
And it will always be.

Define Me

Why must we always define

Let's just be.

Be nothing, Be something.

Who knows-

Who cares?

Why must there always

be something after the period.

Just let it be.

Defining gets messy.

More words-

means more room for error.

Leave it alone and

we will call it good.

I want to be me-

not we.

I want to be I-

not us.

I want to define myself

because I am me-

without you.

And I want to find-

myself within me.

Now

Hold on
Wait a second
I will get back to you.
You are the only one I want to talk with,
I just cannot talk now.
I love you so much,
I just cannot love you now.
I want to spend time with you,
I just cannot give you time now.
I know you are having problems,
but I still cannot give you now.
There is only one now
and I gave it to her.
You will always be there for me-
You will always wait.

-until one day-

the one you love

is too tired to continue to wait.

But for now I hold onto

hoping that one day

you will come back to me

-you will give me now.

One day.